recently I’ve been thinking a lot about how we communicate. how we often say a just little less than what’s accurate or cover up the inconvenient. usually there’s all different kinds of double or triple communication going on, sometimes with completely opposing meanings. irreconcilable confusion. it makes me tired. it has become almost unbearable to carry on a conversation with someone who insist on the charade. it just seems pointless. maybe it’s too frightening to admit the internal circus sometimes going on or maybe it’s just a question of blind spots but seriously, have you ever had one of those ‘cut the crap’ kind of talks? and did that not feel good? it probably felt a little nerve wrecking when you were just about to plunge head first into honesty but afterwards, when everything was clear, no pretending and no confusion, didn’t it feel good? like exhaling your entire soul kind of good? I think that feeling is worth a little nerve wrecking.
once in a while you will meet someone whose words actually match what they express non-verbally. I love when that happens. it gives me hope and fills me with gratitude – and I’m pretty sure it actually makes my heart glow a little.