bring the distorted sense of certainty
to this twisted entirety
bring the messiness
the confusing chaos
the emotional wretchedness
bring the blinding clarity
catalyzed by pain too great to contain
too inconvenient to sustain
too loud to ignore
bring it all
with gratitude greater than ever before
I love it all
every movement is followed by an echo of sadness
so i move slowly
carefully placing one foot
in front of the other
Fifteen years ago I found a silver ring on the ground. It arrived in my life in a very stormy period and somehow it came to symbolize help and protection. For fifteen years it’s been sitting on my left thumb, becoming a natural part me, reminding me of a connection to something bigger – and as the years have gone by and my life have unfolded, reminding me of my own strength. That silver ring became my security blanket and has in many ways been my most important belonging. I’ve always felt that it was only mine to borrow. That I was lucky to find it and should be prepared to let it go again one day.
Fifteen years ago I found a silver ring – and last week I lost it again.
And then there are days where I look at myself in the mirror and simply have to say; You big freak!
sometimes on a happy day
a single bubble of buried resentment
rise to the surface
releasing an echo of beautiful words
by ignorant actions
until the only word left important
sometimes on a happy day
I let go once again
and enjoy my freedom
Several people in my life is right now challenged with getting to the bottom of who they really are. It’s a tough and scary process and I’m so proud of them for having the courage to accept the struggle and move forward with their eyes open.
They have my deepest respect, my support and all my love ♥
Life is hard and sometimes it feels unfair and people will inevitably suck (huge hairy monkey balls) on a regular basis. That’s just the way it is – but it’s not all it is.
It’s a chance to let the world be a mirror reflecting how you choose to live. A chance to adjust an assumption. To straighten out an insecurity or pull back a judgement. Or maybe just relax and admire what you see, in which case, good for you.
It’s a constant balance of navigating between other’s projections and your own blind spots, learning to decipher what your heart is telling you and accept that sometimes there’s no easy solution.
And it’s a wonderful mystery where everything you need is provided with perfect synchronicity and all you have to do is find the courage to accept it and be you.
Easy breezy monkey balls..
challenging the limits
pushing back the horizon
standing on my toes
deepening my understanding
expanding the world
persistently creating more space
hurt but unharmed
embracing what you think
accepting what you throw
never making it my own
bowing my head to what you believe
exhaling it free
grateful for every lesson
bruised but not broken