If you knew that everything is possible.
If you allowed yourself to shape reality in any way your heart tells you to.
What would that look like?
Don’t hold back.
Too busy, and also too much in-process these days to actually form original sentences, but I do constantly stumble upon quotes that perfectly describe this beautiful process of life, in me and around me. Like this one..
“If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself, if you want to eliminate the suffering in the world, then eliminate all that is dark and negative in yourself. Truly, the greatest gift you have to give is that of your own self-transformation.”
~ Lao Tzu
There is a sorrow
beyond all grief which leads to joy
and a fragility
out of whose depths emerges strength.
There is a hollow space
too vast for words
through which we pass with each loss,
out of whose darkness
we are sanctioned into being.
There is a cry deeper than all sound
whose serrated edges cut the heart
as we break open to the place inside
which is unbreakable and whole,
while learning to sing.
I read this poem several years ago and I remember the truth of it echoing through me, bringing me much-needed peace. It reminded me that even in pain there’s beauty, and that what matters the most will never be broken. It is one of my favorite poems, although I haven’t thought of it for a long time – but then today when I read the most recent post on The Better Man Project it immediately popped into my mind again. Funny how that works..
May we all remember, or have someone to remind us, that our dark moments serve a valuable purpose and that we hold in our hearts unbreakable love and light ♥
So, I’m still reading. Today not so much though, since a weird phenomenon has occurred; it feels like something has started spinning in my head. Like literally spinning at high-speed right at the core of my brain. Honestly, it’s a little inconvenient because what I can best describe as the centrifugal force is making me very dizzy, sometimes to the point of actually having to hold on to something not to tilt. Even when I’m already lying down. All day I’ve been pondering this new experience and so far I’ve formed two working theories to guide my further exploration; brain tumor or enlightenment. Possibly both.
Yesterday I finally got started on A Thousand Plateaus by Deleuze and Guattari and I’ve been able to continue for short periods today. That book is brilliant and I’m challenged, inspired, confused, and completely in love.
This is from the very beginning of it:
“… Since each of us was several, there was already quite a crowd. Here we have made use of everything that came within range, what was closest as well as farthest away. We have assigned clever pseudonyms to prevent recognition. Why have we kept our own names? Out of habit, purely out of habit. To make ourselves unrecognizable in turn. To render imperceptible, not ourselves, but what makes us act, feel, and think. Also because it’s nice to talk like everybody else, to say the sun rises, when everybody knows it’s only a manner of speaking. To reach, not the point where one no longer says I, but the point where it is no longer of any importance whether one says I. We are no longer ourselves. Each will know his own. We have been aided, inspired, multiplied.”
There are plenty of their thoughts that I’m not yet able to fully grasp but still enough for me to grow wings and take off into a reality where being is just an attempt to freeze the constant dynamics of becoming.
So although the dizziness has prevented me from dancing today, the book has enabled me to fly – I think that’s an acceptable trade-off.