on my stomach
whispered by Earth
on my back
eyes wide open
breathing the Universe
on a freezing December day
there was a mission
two agents of space and time
traveled across the wide waters
through clear frosty skies
carried by the full moon
twirling in the ray of good will
blowing fuses in the gaze of the Capricorn
continuing on with rosy cheeks
and a clearer vision
following adventure with the sun on our backs
“Do you know what you are?
You are a manuscript of a divine letter.
You are a mirror reflecting a noble face.
This universe is not outside of you.
Look inside yourself;
everything that you want,
you are already that.”
“When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help.”
~Thich Naht Hanh
What an amazing day!
I’ve just returned home, sizzling with gratitude after spending the day celebrating life, honoring Earth and playing with the elements. A big group of people gathered with the same intention, a huge circle of candles and torches and inside it a fire and crystal mandalas. Sending out wishes for the year to come, fire dancing, meditating and channelled messages from entities that I very strongly feel but nevertheless can’t see. Reconnecting with people whom I’ve missed, reconnecting with a part of me I’d temporarily neglected. Freezing my butt off on a Scandinavian muddy field but boosting the fire in my heart.
These past few weeks has been an escalating process, concluding a year of growing insight and I’m left with a slight feeling of dizziness and a profound feeling of coming full circle. It’s not all going to be rainbows and butterflies but in this moment I’m peaceful and have nothing but acceptance of everything that is.
What a wonderful day in an amazing life – and it isn’t over yet.
Life is hard and sometimes it feels unfair and people will inevitably suck (huge hairy monkey balls) on a regular basis. That’s just the way it is – but it’s not all it is.
It’s a chance to let the world be a mirror reflecting how you choose to live. A chance to adjust an assumption. To straighten out an insecurity or pull back a judgement. Or maybe just relax and admire what you see, in which case, good for you.
It’s a constant balance of navigating between other’s projections and your own blind spots, learning to decipher what your heart is telling you and accept that sometimes there’s no easy solution.
And it’s a wonderful mystery where everything you need is provided with perfect synchronicity and all you have to do is find the courage to accept it and be you.
Easy breezy monkey balls..
so you look around and you see nothing but bright promise. challenges, sure, but meaningful and constructive and most of all, excitingly acceptable. so very warm and safe and wonderful. so you look around again. you’re looking for the crack. you know, that dark crack. the place where all the other stuff is coming from, the scary stuff. the stuff that will make you crawl through an endless night, hopefully, emerging brighter than before. it’s tiny but you find it. curiously moving closer. listening for something calling you. it appears bigger now. a mesmerizing vortex of damage. and so, you jump in.
you, my darkness, i want to know you. i want to feel everything about you. i want to put you on and wear you with the same ease as i wear my skin. i want to make you familiar. intimately dig through your confused mud. taste the regret dripping from your ignorant body. feel the pain you breathe into mine. i want to lose myself in the universe that surrounds you, call out for help and never be heard. i want to find you in your cradle. and then, i want to whisper comfort in your ear.
i want to love you. and not be scared of you. and not run away from you.
and finally, i will open that crack and invite you into my world. and make you shine. and make you, me.